attracted to complications
the need of love but yet hatred
the jokes but yet hurt words
reading between the lines
getting bent out of shape over nothing
surprising myself with how my
feelings will jump away from me
dwelling over past issues
wishing things i can never reach
reaching out to something that
dreads further away from me
needing something so bad that
i don't want it anymore
contradicting myself into the
hypocritical person that i really am