with this strength, i stride away
i take a glimpse of yesterday
i hate pressure, i love your pain
i hate guilt, my feelings erased
anger within myself
wanting and needing
my little fucked joke
so i try to forget
my eyes open to your smile waiting
hoping it's for only me
i take a glimpse and realize
the look of disgust was the look for only me
not the smile, not the joke
just the anger within myself
well, like they say.... assumption is the mother of all fuck ups and when you assume, you make an ass of u and me. but hey, it makes for some interesting poetry all the same. i like the little innuendos and thoughts that swirl around in this poem. self blame, loathing, angst. undecided feelings and odd notions make the poem wanna scratch your head and go huh? but at the same time say, write on.