she said
she was ready to make favor
with her
nickel-plated savior:
oh, he would whisk her away
out of bounds,
out of the contextual bullshit
and onto new grounds...
and who wouldn't fathom
such an answer
to a cancerous realm,
where Death is sold at a discount
on every corner?
she was no different,
and soon enough...
there she was:
heart palpitating
fading breath and resolve.
I could have saved her
but no...
the suicide was imminent
as her tender hand slipped
away
from what would become
our final memory:
a synonym now
for yesterday.
I fell,
back against the wall
and gasped,
while trying to understand
"it's not a dream...
it's not a dream..."
but to this day,
I stumble,
dissociated with
a gap of reality
I would rather sew shut.
It's almost like
I never met her
and it's better
that way...
I think...