displeased
with the immaculate ease
of wordless existence,
I've applied
my own disease..
and now..
a cancer found
within the would be answers
to my self inflicted
weakness...
I had the sky once
in my palm.
squeezed it tight
until it bled the blue
right through my knuckles..
out of sight...
and with a half-hearted
desperate chuckle
I spread fingers out
to find
nothing but
the whitened shades
of bare peach --
an empty hand
knows of nothing but the empty air it tries to grab.
but what if I stop reaching?
put hands
in pockets.
what if I stop breaching
the world for a loving premonition
and place knuckles around my antique locket --
clasp the gold
so cold
and wait for a memory
to unfold
the future for me --
like incarcerated fingernails
I grow only as wide as my
extremities entail
but scratch nickel plated surfaces
to see where it sounds sufficiently frail.
and now I will dig...
with broken joints
I will dig...