pensive,
on the defensive.
the judge meant judgment
on a spirit foul.
and far from pristine, or clean
his flawed spirit
was somehow justified
in what I was allowed.
a stranger
letting me know
where my next 50 years
are spent.
I'm not feeling
any kind of good
when he stares
into me.
so my eyeballs solidify
into walls:
impenetrable
and pupils dissolve
into the greater blankness
of a faceless traitor.
look what we will become.