i stand, fixated,
staring into mirrors made from
crystal balls
and watch my reflection
choke on its gasp:
if a future is spent
re-assessing the past,
will the man disappear in the glass?
but if i stand in this place
forever
like a pillar erected to hold
some weight,
how long before
cracks in the stone
be fortified?
or do i exhale,
and submit to the crushing mass?
and am i better off
knees bending,
collapsing beneath the stones,
than prolonging the will
of weary bones?
will clarity surface
amidst the rubble dust
or does it even
matter?
can a pattern
truly be destroyed
and re-employed in a larger scheme
- rapture through fracture
or something alike -
or is it all just
a manic dream?