Recently I have been so out of touch
The things that used to matter, don’t matter as much
I’ve sat, staring at blank pages just waiting for the inspiration to spark
But I found myself just staring at the page until the world goes dark
It feels as though if something is missing
something has disappeared from my life
I wish that I could find it; someway, somehow
But where to start looking is what I do not know
Most of the time I just feel empty,
Like there is nothing on the inside
Just a black pit of darkness
Where the demons like to hide
Do I feel psychotic?
No. That’s not really it.
But day by day I seem to get worse
awaiting that final ride in a hearse
Anxiety, depression, obsession.
Three words that define what I have become;
it’s not that I like these diagnoses
but they are all I have to hold on