what did I do to deserve this?

What happened to happily ever after

A lifetime together, just you and I

What happened to the happiness we were meant to find

Tell me what did you do to our forever?

You were everything to me,

I gave up EVERYTHING for you ;

and this is how you repay me?

You were always a priority to me

Why was I just an option.

why'd you use me,

just so you wouldnt be lonely

till she became available.

You promised to call,

what happened to that?

We were going to start again,

Hold onto patience,

but now, I don't want to go on breathing.

I can't trust anymore,

I can't let anyone in

I'm so terrified they'll just use me

lie to me,

cheat on me,

HURT me...

I can't control anything,

except for causing myself pain

and theres only one thing I wonder,

One thing I want to hear from you ...

What do you have to say for yourself?



Why did you do this to me?

I thought you were sincere

that your feelings were genuine

that you were different,

even though we had problems,

everyone does...

I loved you unconditionally.

Despite everything.



So why was I just part of your game

and why couldnt you have just told me

that you were waiting for someone

but didnt want to be lonely

I would have understand

and been there for you

but you had to go and tear me apart

rip my soul out

and beat it to death

You took everything.

Never hesitated.

I fell for you.

I wanted to spend forever by your side

I believed you.





You healed my heart after it was

shred into a million pieces,

and all in one night,

you shred it all apart again

What did I do to deserve this .....


Author's Notes/Comments: 

Nov. 2008

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