In my Hands

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February 2007

Eyes stinging and dry from all the tears that I have cried

I cant forgive myself for killing myself inside

Losing you is something I never wanted

Yet I am doubting you and throwing away all that we have



It is not that I dont love you, because I do, thats all that is in my heart

Something however, is killing me and tearing me apart

I would never wnat to hurt you, or to treat you bad

Yet I cant fight that inside I am feeling so darn sad



So why does my heart keep breaking...?

I found the greatest love ever, and I cant be saved...

Inside I feel so hollow, so empty....

Somehow I just cant fill the hunger I crave



Lost inside my hollow shell,

I can feel the shambles cackle and yell

Safe inside my darkened room

Am I just waiting for my impending doom...?



Jeer all you want, mock me, whatever you feel is best...

Just don't say you love me only to abandon  me like the rest

Don't put me through the pain that I know you could

Please don't hurt me, I hope that is understood



Loving you as much as I do takes some work

Only because of how much I have been hurt

So afraid at times of getting so close

Sometimes I wonder why it is me that you chose



Then there are moments that I feel so high

With you there I feel as though I could fly

You are the ohnly one with whom I would dance

All because you are the only one who ever gave me a real chance



You were there when others walked out

You stood by my side, gave me somewhere to stand

I love you without a shadow of a doubt

That will always be the truth shown in my hands

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