I'm cutting myself again
don't want you to see where I have been
I'm holding the pills in my cold, dead hand
Just wishing for the end
Wanting so much to no longer pretend
Shaking uncontrollably
All the feelings running through my head
Quicker than I have time to react
Everything piling on top of each other
I am pushed too far
Wishing for once that things would be okay
That I didnt wish my life away
I am losing the battle now,
I need you the most
But trying to go on
Just seems so effortless