I die a bit more each and everyday
Even if I get a bit of hope...it gets ripped away
I try to hold on, I try to stay strong
But every moment I survive it feels that something is wrong
I'm holding on by a bit of hope that dangles on a string
But I wonder how it clings
Why did you make me believe
in such a beautiful lie...
You said you would never leave ...
But here I sit and pray to die
Just take the knife and stab it right through my heart
Kill what has already been torn apart
You left me here to bleed and cry
You took it all.......and now I'm dead inside.
You make me hate all I have become
Because if it weren’t for you I would have already been done
I wouldn’t have put myself through this hell
I wouldn’t have to worry about not being well
It hurts to breathe......it hurts to move
Especially when the movement proves...
That I am still here and alive...
Another night I pray to not survive.
Just kill me with ease while I am I sleeping
This life that merely exists isn’t worth keeping
There are scars left in masses on my heart
From when I was killed inside and the murder left its mark
You look into the eyes of mine....
Do they still shine...?
They lost their sparkle....their once lively glow...
Now they just are dead and black as coal
Nothing left to be seen....
Nowhere safe left to lean
Take this life....it has no worth...
Not when it is constantly being hurt
I cut and bleed to know I am still here...
and when I find I am I shed a million tears
When it comes down to it...
I wish I never existed....
Just let me become invisible ...
and be a far off memory that eventually you forget
I've lost so much time...that I cant seem to get back..
Happiness left long ago....it ran off the tracks
No smiles left to be shown....
Nothing good will ever be known
I can relate to this....it's really good
Shattered Eden