Walking these streets, empty as I roam
I can stand in a crowd and still feel so alone
I can stand by your side and still feel dead
I try to keep up but my feet feel like lead
Just wanting to be accepted so I follow the trend
Gain more acquaintences, but never any friends
Been broken and stepped on one too many times
Maybe one day It will sink in before I cross the line
Once I had high hopes but they got fucked up
So I stepped back and now I trust no one
No expectations because I feel undeserving
No love needed here because I am not worthy
Tried to please someone, But I failed
Couldnt handle all the times those I cared for yelled
Run into darkness to hide my tears
Cant let them see my fears
So Yet I still walk alone, still so insecure
Happiness doesnt exist, at least not for me, of that I am sure
Slipping through the surface, need to break through
You dont want to see the damage I could do
I honestly don't expect much anymore...if I have it, I have it, if I don't, then I don't...I don't bother with it anymore.
Essence