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I'm constantly fighting with myself

Or maybe the demon on the other side of the mirror

I sometimes think that if I clean the glass

The reflection will come out clearer



But I still find the same distorted image

Cracked and tainted inside and out

A girl whose soul is long gone and last

Who inside is about to scream and shout



My mind always going insane

Either running a marathon or feeling completely empty

I wonder if I am really that insane

If anyone will ever understand me



And if I am crazy, why haven't they sent me away

Far away where I cannot detriment anyone else

The place where all privacy means nothing

Where they rip and wash away all hope for any pride



How come no one ever saw the signs of my destruction

Its not like I cry out, begging to be noticed

But a little hope in knowning im not forgotten would be nice,

Yet everyone I know is stuck in oblivion



Everyone thinks it is just a phase, that one day it will pass

Perhaps they think I enjoy the attention, perhaps they find it encouraging

They don't understand the pain that I hold deep within

The pain they would never begin to understand even if they asked



Never have I felt wanted,

Never have I honestly felt important

Perhaps I am just another girl in this world, here for no reason

Here for no purpose whatsoever



Their jokes seem funny to them

Acting as if I am the "death of the party"

I can't stand the stares from them

Especially when they think they are being funny



Pain is no laughing matter, it is real, it is deeply pure

Once I laughed in the face of pain, thought it was a selflish thing to endure

but now that I live it, breathe it in

I know what it is like to die within



Yet still they laugh, taunt and tease

They don't understand how depression can be a horrible disease

Their cruelty is just another game

Something to bring them more popularity, more fame



However, things could obviously be worse

But to me, this pain feels like a curse

Telling me I am only destined for the end

Filled with a broken heart that will never mend