Fighting in Vain.

"it's been awhile since i could look at myself straight

and it's been awhile since i said im sorry.

and it's been awhile since i've seen the candles light your face

and it's been awhile but i can still remember just the way you taste."



i listen to these lyrics repeatedly as i reminice in your picutres strewn across my wall.

i can't think.i can't sleep.i can't eat.i can't feel.i can't breathe.

i feel like an old movie cliche.

obsessive?far from it.

in love?you have no idea.





"anais,would you SERIOUSLY just let her go...there are other fish in the sea...maybe she's right..."



these words are repeated to me everyday.

i ignore them and keep fighting.

but am i fighting in vain?

is there even a chance i can redeem my best friend?

i'm just waiting for the worst to be over.



"hey um...it's me?...call me when you can..."



the only message i can leave you anymore.

no infinite iloveyou's tied to the end.

just that.just those few words,

hoping you'll recieve them with as much joy as  i feel when i even hear your voice.

maybe one day soon i can add an iloveyou...even if it's just as a friend.



"BABY!BABY!?!?..."



it plays in my head everytime i talk to you.

baby!baby, please!im sorry i swear i am!talk to me again.

let me be your best friend again,please?

i'm trying do you see it?

or are you just gonna leave me here...

living in the memories,

the old picutres,

i'll live in the songs...



"and there's no blame for how our love did surely fade.but now that it's gone,it's like it wasn't there at all.and her ei rest,where disappointment and regret collide.lying awake at night"



-Twilight.

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written:4.13.

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Afzal Shauq's picture

hmmm like it very much... inspiring a lot...it's very sweet and professionally done this poem with deep idea... yeah I am not wrong if I again say it that you are good poet with new subjects to express... sharing it if you will also like my expression of love based peace thoughts also( a friendly smile is the best weapon of war to fight with.... afzal shauq ) I am sure my this famous say will be satisfying your every worry about the humanity and social life and even friendship...yeah is the only answer to your questions raising in your mind about the happiest collective life.... yeah... we belong to same family of Adam...and we are true cousins..good friend...go on and on...