Thoughts swarming like a bunch of busy bees
Hard at work
flying to and fro
collecting their nectar for the harvest
These same actions collect in my mind
haunt me all day
terrorize me all night with beautiful nightmares
wake up with sweet misery thinking of you
I would love to love you,
the way you deserve to be loved.
Treat you like a king
as you treated many unworthy queens before me.
I feel with all the time winded up,
clocks that can't be turned back,
nor the time regained
questions lie in between the lips of my intertwined thoughts
tangled up like the butterflies in my stomach
They flutter,
floating around
making me laugh
with joy I await you,
with anticipation I love you
with love I embrace you
I feel a sense of security with you
I feel safe, knowing I will not be harmed
For once I feel
Free
nothing holding me captive but your
warmth, kindness, and these emotions
too sweet and strong to let go.
But I keep fighting and struggling and denying and trying and attempting and accepting.....
that's it acceptance
Acceptance rather than denial
will loosen the grip your love has on me
I tell myself, "I can't want you"
but I do
sometimes I don't want to
but most times I do.
That's it...
I'm so comfortable with you.