(Written 3~7~04)
I remember nothing.....
No memories, no laughter, no feelings.
Not even blood.
Though I’m left to bleed in this tortured soul.
I’ve let them win.
Constantly mourning for what I chose to let go.
A fatal flaw within my heart.
Too trusting, where I cannot grow.
They always know.
Yet time moves forward.
Inch by each, life by life.
Scattered on the precipice of feeling.
They hold me back.
No matter how many times I break free.
The fall is unnerving.
Like the cold of fresh fallen snow.
I’ve escaped again.
For a moment, for a pause.
Choices mine, but never so.
They creep closer.
Hiding in a place where no one dares venture.
A numbness settles deep.
An unseen sense, an unknown meaning.
They find me.
Cold and broken.
Bruises unseen by the naked eye.
Tears streaming, yet nothing left to cry.
I remember nothing.....
Someone please tell me.
How did I die?