(Written: 10~4~04)
It’s crested.
All this pain buried deep inside.
I though that time would heal.
How I told myself such lies.
In the end I saw the silence.
Engulf me like a storm.
Cleansing away the blackened ashes.
Leaving me raw, battered, and torn.
I gave my heart away.
Left it dripping in your hands.
Awaiting still, it’s beating’s ceased.
Now I fight for every breathe of air.
I wish I could hold you tight.
A blanket in winter’s chilled depths.
Yet you stand there silent.
Confusion making you doubt.
In shadows now I hide away.
Too afraid to face the light.
I can’t force myself to look inside.
See I’m still alive, still have more left to fight.
Windows glaze over from the wind.
I draw your name and watch it fade.
Longing turned to teardrops.
Freezing from the chill of yesterday.
I make my home a prison.
Work a chamber of death.
Stealing away my sanity.
The only thing I seem to have left.
It’s crested.
This longing turned to pain.
I thought that time would heal.
All it’s done was chase you away.
So I sit and wait and wonder.
Will you ever love me the same way?
Or will you leave me frozen to the glass.
Lifeless beneath the faded outlines of your name.