Timing is, as they say, everything. The correct timing can very well be the difference between success and failure in everything we do, but especially in a relationship. The thing about timing though is that it has to be the right timing
for both parties. I think so many relationships fail because of the timing being wrong for one person or the other.
Our meeting was perfect timing for me in that it you saved me in ways I could not express. You diverted me from a path of insecurity and loneliness to one of acceptance and passion.
But at what cost? My dignity was the high price I paid for you. At the time, it seemed worthwhile. But now I see that this path was so far from the one I should have been on in the first place.
I shouldn’t have needed someone to give me value. I needed to find that in myself because after our parting, I was back at square one- alone and insecure. It’s taken me this long to realize what went wrong. All this time you said I wasn’t ready for a relationship. And maybe that’s partly true. But, by the same token, you weren’t ready either.
For you, the timing was all wrong. You may have been ready in that you had experience, but you were not in relationship mode. You were still holding onto your single life- your friends, your habits.
Now the timing is right for you, but you are with someone else. I don’t wish we were together. Some things are destined to fail. For our own good.
I found the right path finally. Maybe much later than I would have hoped, but it could not come at a better time.