It seems so long ago
Since the last time
I saw you...the last time
I really saw you
Even though it's been
Less than a month.
It's been easy not
Thinking about you or
At least not thinking
About you in a positive
Way; I've been simmering
In anger for the last week.
But now, for just a
Moment, I felt like I had
Lost something so precious;
I missed you so much...
Or at least I missed
The thought of you-
Having someone there
If I ever wanted to talk.
But you were never there
For me, at least not how
I needed you to be
And that's what's made
Me angry recently
Because I really wanted
You to be there.
And more than not having
You, coming to this
Realization is all the
More painful because
I don't miss you at all,
I just miss the illusion
Of being cared for.