I asked myself, “How will our story end?”
Only time will tell;
So I will jump head first
Hoping I land on my feet.
My silent fears speak louder
Than my harsh words.
You see through my cold-heartedness
Cloaked in lies of my morality.
You know I think you will hurt me.
So I try to hurt you first
But every time I do, I fail
And I only hurt myself.
Despite the hurt I cause myself
You still manage
To pinch and probe me
Like your own personal voodoo doll.
I took every pinprick in stride
Even though it hurts so much
Until the last one
That pierced right through my heart.
You break my heart each day
And wonder why you see me hurting
So you try to put it back together
With super glue, but it's not enough.
I went from an unbelievable high
To an unbearable low
Because the more you know me
The more I know you will hurt me.
Why does it hurt so much?
My eyes once prone to hollow tears
Were healed only to be infected again
By substantial tears this time.
When I met you, you carried me.
Now that you are gone
I’m afraid I need a crutch
Not to fall down again.
Why does it hurt so much to let you go?
I think I will stay
Until you complete me
Or leave me empty.
When the door closed behind you,
It opened my eyes
Seeing I was still intact
Because I know I didn't deserve this pain.