I may have once wiped you
Clean of your imperfections,
But I cannot say the same about
Mine since they were magnified
As you shined a spotlight on
Every impurity I tried to hide.
Now you have left me alone to
Perform a thorough inspection
Of myself.
So now, I analyze the motives
Behind each decision I’ve made
Against my better judgment and
To make sense of my tendencies.
Next, I begin to draw up a list of
The reasons for my dependency,
To discover why I attach myself
To others and why I’m so afraid
To be alone.
I realize I’m my own first priority;
I’ve never done anything without
Thinking about what I had to gain
From the situation in the first place
And I don’t know why I am so
Terrified of coming face-to-face
With my fears and of delving deep
Enough to understand why I doubt
My abilities.