I fed your eyes
and fueled your fantasies.
Bowing in veneration and
arms outstretched
to receive your pity,
you consumed me.
With an appetite to satisfy
my own immoral cravings,
I consumed you-
the burning in my throat
equivalent to that
of my desire.
My face in your lap,
your hands behind
thrusting me forward,
eager to hear
that gagging sound.
A rush of blood
to your throbbing head
when mindfulness
was thrown bedside.
Feeling (w)retched,
the shame was
hardest to swallow;
it tasted bitter.
Your influence
towered over me,
immense in proportion
to my resistance
against you.
Were you my
redeemer?
I always knew
I’d find salvation
on my knees,
but not like this.