Settling down to look at Penthouse pictures and browse thru Celine. . .switch back and forth. Don’t really want to make a decision. The pictures are so perty and I want them bad but it is not to be. Get back on the literary track. Feed the mind! Stimulate the brain with literature. Brush up on Celine and Kafka and dust off the volumes of Dostoevski. It’s time for the local loser to refocus on the Past Dreams. They have not been assassinated. They have merely slumbered dormant and awaiting the call.
Can not read pages
eyes drawn to a picture show
I lust quietly
literary pursuit fades
then born again in secret