But I can’t write
some glorious account
of existential redemption
a la Camus or Sartre
can’t pretend to be
T.S. Eliot or Ezzie Pound
That’s just the way
the mop flops
I can’t feel fully alive
minutes before
the guillotine drops
won’t be Babbit
and never do what I want
gotta step out
into the blazing night
feel the fire
of intense fever
the pen flows
the paper gathers ink
the work must be
something all my own
else there’s no sense
to even bother at all
3/8/96