I’m a markedly different man
now than I was before;
the youthful optimism
is long gone
I haven’t given up
on sex
but I have
given up on love
and I no longer see good
in everyone I meet
Some folks,
as Burroughs said,
are just shits
I’m on the take
when I hear
that knock on wood
of opportunity
and it’s shocking at times
to see a mirror
and acknowledge
that this person
is what I became
I can’t visualize
Keat’s beauty
or feel the music
of the master s playing
I have ideas
of what I want
and few on how
to go about getting it
and that little bit
is not much
but now it’s
really all I have left