The train didn’t arrive
on time
and I was forced
to spend time
at the tracks
in freezing cold weather
and I must confess
it ain’t pleasant
when derelicts are drinking
cheap red wine concealed
inside a brown paper bag
and their toxic breath
is a reminder that I haven’t
yet begun to drink
and Septa’s tardiness
is leaving me drinkless
at the Croydon Train Station
and my balls feel like
they’re gonna fall off.
I’m almost tempted
to take a swig of Mad Dog
If it doesn’t kill me
it’ll probably get me pretty high
and maybe I’d feel like
a 19th Century popet
slamming absinthe and toking hash
as the muses laughed
at my pitiful plight
and the few poems would rhyme
and keep mystical time
but I’m not so sure
if going backwards is real
or even possible
and all I have
is a week old City Paper
and a couple old Irish drunks
who claim they knew me when
and I’m just not feeling
like inspiration is likely
and perhaps the end is near
but I never trust a person
named after a whore’s client.
I just wanna return
to the fabled city
when I can drink my stout
and rhapsodize all about
various different routes
one may choose in life
rambling along chaotically
seems about all I can
manage to get done.
Nobody knows better than me
the utter lack of effort
and all I wanna do
is board a damn train
that as yet remains
somewhere else along the line
and I stand here freezing
not making it anywhere
but for want of drink
I’ll think it could be worse
but that won’t benefit
any of the ones to whom
I’m thereof referring
and that’s why no one listens
or no one really cares
and I can’t say I blame them
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