As I turn
down the avenue
and walk
with furtive steps;
the sinister plot
of the modern world
is intensely playing
in my head
the scent of papaya
& urine;
the grime covered
apocalypse
of future hellholes
we are entering
and the insidious laughter
ensues;
it is disconcerting
to hear the mockery;
the dripping acid
of sarcasm
the flesh boils
at the mention
of the sins
I can not commit
in daylight
without southern cross
the burning arrow
in the air
I must surrender—
this is a battle
that I can not win
yet still I drag myself
insistent on victory
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