And then
people find out
that I’m really not
that naïve
that I ain’t innocent
I’m guilty as sin
I have whore’s blood
raging thru my veins
I do not know
the meaning of the word
I merely hide
behind sinister dimples
and persuade people
to take me at face value;
accept my word
cuz I’m so sweet;
so childlike
I couldn’t possibly
know the touch
of a whore’s finger
on my prostate
or the whiskey breath rantings
of the downtown drunk
no one will believe it
I have carefully managed
to pull the wool
over everyone’s eyes
I act the part
of the unknowing child
able to invoke
the frail innocence of youth
con my way
with great skill and aplomb
as everyone thinks
I wouldn’t ever;
I couldn’t possibly
but the tricks of a whore
I know so well
ever so cautiously
concealed by sweet words
& the boyish charm
of sinister dimples
able to strongly suggest
something other
than what is really
beating inside this heart
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