i am afraid we
will never talk
again, really
converse
where the other
knows there is
no other truth
no other version
i am afraid
i will never kiss
you again
i am afraid
you do not trust
my candor
i am afraid
i can write you
400 poems and
you might wonder
my sincerity
i am afraid
i might never
see you again
i am afraid
i will see you
and it will be worse
than never seeing you
i am afraid
all the poetry
about your kiss
is rhetoric
i am afraid
i will be someone
you don't talk to and
complain to others how
i never communicate
i am afraid
to know what
you think
i am afraid
that i care for you
too much
and not enough
i am afraid
that my desire
pushes you away
i am afraid
i will be someone
you say broke
your heart
or that you won't
i am afraid
that you will never
know that even in
my most sincere moment
i can not express how
beautiful you are
i am afraid
there will be a war
and that all the world
will crumble
i am afraid
i am the best
i will ever be
i am afraid
that hello kitty
will lose her humor
i am afraid
i can closer
to poverty than
i can believe
i am afraid
there will never
be enough kindness
in the world
i am afraid
i perhaps don't like you
as much as i believe
that i will you into
my ethics
i am afraid
that this poem
becomes afraid
to be honest
i am afraid
that the room
i make for you
in my dreams
is what keeps
me away at night
i am afraid
you have moved on
and i am not smart
enough to now
i am afraid
i might never
know again
how your embrace
can push all
my fear into
a lint ball on
on your sweater
i am afraid
someone waits for me
and i go on without them
i am afraid
you will never
be happy
i am afraid
i will never
make love again
i am afraid
i will never
slide my hand
on your belly
again
i am afraid
maybe i do things
that anger you
when i know better
i am afraid
i will continue
to write you poems
in an institution
for people that
are spinning
with lust
and i will start
a new conversation
each day with an
old boyfriend of yours
i am afraid
people might not
see the humor in an
old boyfriend convention
held in an asylum
i am afraid
i will never
touch your breasts
i am afraid
my fear
scares my friends
and i will no longer
be able to befriend
dogs and cats
i am afraid
your fears
are bigger
than i can handle
i am afraid
i will not take
a picture of you
and that picture
will now contain a smile
you create from being with me
i am afraid
your surgeries
will go on
i am afraid
you will have
more car crashes
and i will always
worry for you
when you are
a big girl
i am afraid
that focusing
on my fear
is not making
anything of beauty
i am afraid
i will die
but more afraid
i will not live
i am afraid
i want a lifetime
with you, but would
settle for a moment
This is one of the most brilliant love poems I have ever received . . . in thirty years of reading poetry.
Starward