fear

Folder: 
fear

i am afraid we

will never talk

again, really

converse

where the other

knows there is

no other truth

no other version



i am afraid

i will never kiss

you again



i am afraid

you do not trust

my candor



i am afraid

i can write you

400 poems and

you might wonder

my sincerity



i am afraid

i might never

see you again



i am afraid

i will see you

and it will be worse

than never seeing you



i am afraid

all the poetry

about your kiss

is rhetoric





i am afraid

i will be someone

you don't talk to and

complain to others how

i never communicate



i am afraid

to know what

you think



i am afraid

that i care for you

too much

and not enough



i am afraid

that my desire

pushes you away



i am afraid

i will be someone

you say broke

your heart

or that you won't



i am afraid

that you will never

know that even in

my most sincere moment

i can not express how

beautiful you are



i am afraid

there will be a war

and that all the world

will crumble



i am afraid

i am the best

i will ever be



i am afraid

that hello kitty

will lose her humor



i am afraid

i can closer

to poverty than

i can believe



i am afraid

there will never

be enough kindness

in the world



i am afraid

i perhaps don't like you

as much as i believe

that i will you into

my ethics



i am afraid

that this poem

becomes afraid

to be honest

i am afraid

that the room

i make for you

in my dreams

is what keeps

me away at night



i am afraid

you have moved on

and i am not smart

enough to now



i am afraid

i might never

know again

how your embrace

can push all

my fear into

a lint ball on

on your sweater



i am afraid

someone waits for me

and i go on without them



i am afraid

you will never

be happy



i am afraid

i will never

make love again



i am afraid

i will never

slide my hand

on your belly

again



i am afraid

maybe i do things

that anger you

when i know better



i am afraid

i will continue

to write you poems

in an institution

for people that

are spinning

with lust



and i will start

a new conversation

each day with an

old boyfriend of yours



i am afraid

people might not

see the humor in an

old boyfriend convention

held in an asylum



i am afraid

i will never

touch your breasts



i am afraid

my fear

scares my friends

and i will no longer

be able to befriend

dogs and cats



i am afraid

your fears

are bigger

than i can handle



i am afraid

i will not take

a picture of you



and that picture

will now contain a smile

you create from being with me



i am afraid

your surgeries

will go on

i am afraid

you will have

more car crashes

and i will always

worry for you

when you are

a big girl



i am afraid

that focusing

on my fear

is not making

anything of beauty



i am afraid

i will die

but more afraid

i will not live



i am afraid

i want a lifetime

with you, but would

settle for a moment

View gemboy's Full Portfolio
S74RW4RD's picture

This is one of the most brilliant love poems I have ever received . . . in thirty years of reading poetry.


Starward