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The shame I feel,

I was not half the man I should've been.

I was a coward,

I let fear rule my life and tainted all my decisions.

I lost my self confidence,

I felt that I would fail no matter what.

I fell into a depresion,

I allowed myself to drift into an abyss of darkness.

I hated myself,

I became my own worst enemy filled with self loathing.

I was filled with self pity,

I convinced myself that the world was against me and curled into a ball.

I betrayed the one that loved me,

I made empty promise, lied and failed in every way.

I lashed out in anger,

I saw everything slipping away, I lost control because it was too late.

Now I'm alone,

I've lost my dignity,

I've lost my freedom,

I've lost my best friend,

I've lost two girls that I've loved and cared for,

I've lost my son, my only child.

If only I wasn't who I've been,

If only I was stronger,

If only I wasn't here.