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A Learned Lesson
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Poems | 2006 and beyond When he was with me,
I had nowhere to look,
for all I needed was with me.
When he left,
I had nowhere to look,
for all I needed burned as a bright memory
within me.
When he told me to move on,
that there's nothing left to be said or done,
I became hurt and angry...
...with myself
for being a fool for one
who did not value me.
I chose to hang on
to the friendship because
I wanted to keep him close
for all he had been and done
for me...
...and because I could not bear
to see him disappear completely.
As time moved on,
I felt the sting of being a non-priority,
the weight of the words before me,
kept me in a limbo-type of place
instead of allowing me to be free...
...hard to fully act as a friend,
except from a distance...
...and even then,
the remnants of what I felt
tainted the purity
of the interactions.
Hard to let go,
when I hadn't fully dealt with my own
ocean of emotions.
I imagine it must be hard for him,
draining and dreadful
to know that someone feels for you
what you could never feel for her.
I know because I live through that
day in and out.
The lesson learned is simple -
be a woman.
Be strong, move on,
let a man be a man
and show you that
it's for you that he longs.
Let a man speak to you
the words of sonnets and songs,
but in truthful direct vernacular
and through direct action.
Don't assume that actions
mean anything without words to back,
and don't assume words mean anything
unless movement is made to act.
Go for what you want,
but walk with care and be certain
that what you want is what you need
and there's no doubt within that person
about whether he feels connected
as you feel to him,
and that never leaving is a part of his intentions.
Be sure that he will seek you first,
instead of others to share his precious time,
as you shall too seek him,
to share your precious life.
Individuals together,
but never losing sight
that the two of you are
two people walking their own paths
that continue down the line
side by side.
If you've learned this lesson now,
then it won't be hard to discount
the distractions along the way.
Just keep the faith in love,
and move forward with peace and hope
for that special day
when that special person
comes your way.
