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Catalyst
Life is a constant state of transitioning
from one place to the next,
literally or figuratively, and sometimes
both at once.
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I've started and stopped so many times
as I've tried to align myself
with my highest life path,
and somehow every time I've made
real movement forward,
it was catalyzed by what always seemed
to be huge steps back,
or even falls that knocked me out flat.
The mask and shield of my ego attempting
to protect me through poor choices
and false bravado
and the seeking out for fulfillment from outside,
when in truth, as reminded so often by
various physical and immaterial guides,
the truth is found inside.
One soul attempted conversation with me today,
trying to understand me for what seems
the first time,
uncovering milestones and other souls
with whom he might consider
potential threats to his seat in this life.
Or, as he stated, just to get to know me better,
as a man should his wife.
And a part of me is happy to feel this change in view,
but another part of me is still doubtful
that we will see this through.
Even with the effort, I can't share as freely as I'd like,
half of what I say is laughed off at best,
or invalidated as rife.
Another portion grossly misunderstood,
eventually escalated to conflict, strife,
immense amounts of energy needed to resolve things
must be utilized throughout the remainder of the night to
make things right.
By dawn of the next day, trauma holds steady,
and we remain bonded, defense at the ready.
However in the now, present as I stand,
healing has commenced -
it seems these struggles are part of a divine master plan.
Dreams that had halted in the recent past
have returned to prove the peeling of layers
is the undoing and renewing of who I truly am
underneath the mask.
The truth of my manifestations to replace what
I once thought lost, and the eternal never truly apart,
only left to be free to learn what is needed
as we shed old defenses that once guarded the heart.
Fear is cast away and patience fills my cup,
as we walk the steps of the present,
knowing deep within that it's okay to trust
in the flow of the tides that we surf through
in the fabric of space and time,
when the lesson of this current class has been cast,
and all that has needed to be completed
gives way for the light within
to shine unbridled
as the One and none,
my whole being
God and Goddess
as I Am.
