I started to lose sense of reality
I rush out of my thoughts, from that gigantic web I’ve created in my head to complicate my mind even further…
scribbles, notes, a whirlpool swallowing every sensible thought that i have.
The blood rushes through my veins and stumbles with my broken heartbeats..
such a tight space for a great deal of sorrow.. fury and pain..
choking my veins..
sadness collided within me..
the chambers petrified..
the arch stiffed..
a hollow muscle that pumped positivity all around me is now pumping dread and trepidation…
I start to lose sense of stability
I rush into a dream, to that hefty landscape I’ve imagined would hopelessly cure my reality..
my helpless dream turns into a nightmare.. haunting me for what I’ve endured..
blaming me for suffering my intense pain…
the spring turns to winter..
the thunder strikes me, the rain drowns me, the lightning blinds me…
a haven that protects me from all this madness inside of me is now turning into a swamp that strafes me…