So begins this day,
As any other day as it begins,
Because I am without my mind,
and I am without my past,
I am undefined.
Another trip of painkillers,
Sunk this ship of mind and life,
You will hate me, as they all do.
Pitiful simplistic overly dramatic,
Disgusting excuse of a poetic mess,
There's nothing here but emptiness,
And how cliche is it to say?
Just keep dancing to the music,
Blindly like a fool loving again,
Pushing out all things that was,
There is only myself in these endless nights.
Read the books about vampires,
Oh, keep on wishing for it all,
Just keep wanting that purity,
With that black soul of yours.
Talk to myself,
Uneventful little life,
I wish it were a movie,
And it all ended in happy endings.
Oh how cliche,
How fake it all is,
If I was to be taken notice of,
That's all a lie.
I keep on listening to the music,
I hear words now,
I see meaning behind the sound,
Not just some enjoyment.
Subtle hints of what I want,
It isn't enough,
I require too much,
Pitiful fool that I am.
Friends no more,
Dark secrets that are given,
exaggerations turned to false words,
All these rumors untrue.
My personality is not known,
Because they want to believe I am evil,
Always dawned to them,
That darkness is evil.
Please don't hurt me,
Not anymore,
But you'll do it still,
And that's how reality is.
Four lines,
How typical,
Just like a fool,
Trying to make an impact.
Nothing, as each day goes on,
That's how it feels,
Empty inside, waiting for you,
I want to believe.
Shot in the head, he's gone,
They've got cancer,
Another disaster,
I can't watch this go on.
I hate you, those who have raped,
I hate you, I hate you those who've stolen,
I hate you, all of you, vile beings,
I hate you all.
Lies and deceit, this world,
This world is ours,
And that's what we make it,
Idiots.
Help me, find me,
Save me,
Keep me,
But nothing will ever.
Loneliness is our creed,
This generation,
Where our parents are split apart,
And no one gives a damn.
Greed consumes the soul,
Selfish materialistic personalities,
Who are you better than?
No one.
And in all these paradoxes,
There's my truth,
I love, and I love,
And I hurt, and I hurt.
I can't stop loving,
She put it simply,
Loving is living,
Never rang so true.
The last hope is here,
I can't wait 'til the end,
I wish I could change the world,
And it isn't so possible.
Read me,
Remember me,
Keep me,
Save me, never more.
Death is so feared,
We hope for eternity,
And I want it,
Ever so badly, as we all do.
Stop the pain, take some notice,
Change the world,
Drive out the corrupted,
Here we are.
Alone,
We're voids of who should be,
Connected through electricity,
Through energy and power.
Never has there been so many people,
On one single planet,
And here we are,
Telling everyone how sad we are.
How alone we are.
How unloved we are.
How no one cares.
How no one notices.
Circles you have to do,
To make the message clear,
Over and over,
In different ways.
Untested drugs of joy,
Brings us to death,
Adolecents still,
Feed us more.
These aren't the vile drugs,
No, my friend,
Happy pills,
That lets us kill ourselves.
Afraid of that pill,
I know the stories,
And I can feel it,
The sudden sinking inside.
When the effects wore off,
And depression ten times worse,
Seemed so fine an hour ago,
And now I'm dead.
Nightmares,
It's all I dream,
Nightmares,
Is all I live.
Shine some hope,
You are my love,
I hope forever,
And more.
I love your laugh,
You're so beautiful,
I believe in you,
You are intelligent.
Sweet nothings,
I hate those,
I hate all lies,
Don't say things that aren't true.
White lies,
Black lies,
Grey lies,
All lies, I hate.
Mastermind I am,
Understanding of so much,
And yet so secluded,
Why?
No one wants to believe.
It takes time for them to believe.
To realize that they are forcing themselves,
to believe what they want.
I am always right,
And this makes me hated,
I always speak my mind,
And that is unlawful.
I speak out for the depressed,
I speak out for the suicidal,
I speak out for us all,
And all that does,
Is cause more hate,
More hatred for us,
For what reason?
We won't just die?
Thanks,
I don't care about the money,
The job,
School causes me pain, thanks.
Family, isolation as always,
Thanks for presuming I love them all,
I don't love hate,
Thanks, for believing what I feel.
We do not follow the rules of,
What must be felt,
What must be said,
Ignore us, keep on going.
Let us die,
Because you believe,
We should push ourselves,
For materialistic things.
Let me live in a simple job,
Doing just enough to live,
As long as we have love,
As long as we're happy.
You push us,
And keep us,
And ignore us,
And destroy us.
I am following the road,
Down the dark path,
The way that is suppose to be wrong,
And you're a fool.
Take some notice,
And forget what you think we'd regret,
Just pay some attention,
We're not idiots.
You leave me,
Torn into two,
And I can't continue,
I can't make changes.
I drink my drink,
Eat my food,
Play my games,
Just another teenager.
Unnoticed, uncared,
So I want to say,
And it's all lies,
How I feel.
Because I'm wrong,
And I don't know what I feel,
Because we all don't know anything,
Due to our youth.
Stupid fools,
That's the end of it all,
That kills us,
I keep dying inside.
So ends the tale,
Of our lives,
Because this made no difference,
In the end.