I don't know what I've done
But I'm sorry for it anyways
This life
It's so messed up
My eternal love for you is trying to slip away
All because of my heart
And it's thoughts on betrayal
I can't live anymore
Nobody knows how much death appeals to me
I want to slit my throat
So many times I have come close
But something stops me
Something holds me back
I can't take it anymore
I want to die... Hopefully in your arms
Could you please put me out of my misery?
I don't want to do this anymore
The blade is placed upon my wrist
But I cannot bleed
Something in my mind is once again
Holding me back...
I hate the way I love you
And how I want you to break me
Into so many little pieces
I'm sorry for the way I am
For what I never was
For not being enough
For you...
So can you break me now?
Can you take all the memories we ever had
And tear them apart?
Could you search and destroy every bit of happiness
I never knew I had?
Take all my regrets and throw them in my face?
I wish I knew how to be
Your everything...
I think I need help
As now I want to suffer
In this dark nothingness
I deserve this abuse
Every cut upon my flesh doesn't hurt as much
As the scars upon my soul
Please, put me out of my misery
I want to die in your arms
Just once I want to say the words that wont come out
I love you
And I'm sorry it had to be this way...
But I cannot be saved
From my self-torture
I wish you could see me
Like I see you
Forever
I am crying
Slowly dying inside
I'll never be good enough
I'm sorry I never was
Everything you wanted
Now let death speak my name
For I've seen my forsaken light
I've witnessed death
And I've seen where I belong
Let me die
In your arms
Even if I never was everything to you
You could at least pretend you loved me...
A week of hell? Must've been tough. And hot. :D