I may still think of you,
Crave you,
Hold you in from breath to breath,
Ponder the meaning to your existence,
While holding onto what I can
Of your memory;
But I will never drain my own being,
For you.
I will no longer hold you up on a pedestal;
You will no longer hear from me,
For I must get over you;
And the only way to do so,
Is to hold onto you,
Breathe in each thought of you,
Allow you to play in my mind,
And put it on repeat.
I need to take in what I have;
Even if I can no longer,
Touch,
Feel,
Or smell you.
I will let my thoughts linger,
And remember you.
When that is done and over,
I may be able to walk away,
And ignore your presence,
In my unconscious subconscious.
Then, and only then,
May I be over you