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me against myself
My inner voice won't shut the fuck up. I've bashed my head but he won't give up. I get the pain and he laughs it up. Feeling pathetic like I've had enough.
( You idiot go hit yourself again. You're a lame fucking loser and I'll never get out this head. I'll keep pushing till you jump off that ledge. But I know you won't so you're stuck with me till the end.)
My worst enemy has always been my mind. I know what I need to do but my head won't let me try. Get a false sense of hope then finding out it's a lie. Feeling emotionless but still I cry. Can't understand it I just ask why. A happy kid definitely a little shy. Needing a partner them convinced I don't deserve a wife.
( That's because I am the one that's locked inside. Me being in here means I never need to hide. Even you can't see me when I keep you up at night. I'll fuck up a happy thought every damn time. Consider yourself lucky I don't fuck with your sight.)
That voice inside is corrupt and unkind. My heart wanting good with the ability to love life. Thought i had to do it alone seeing it as pride. Then came failure with everything I've tried.
