What do my children really see.
When they turn and look at me.
They only see an ugly old shell
A daft silly woman who only thinks of herself.
If only they knew what's realy inside me.
I'm still a young girl with dreams of my own
A mummy and daddy to cherish and love me.
My childhood returned, because it is lost.
No memories of friends Who
that I never had.
No country or home to consider my own.
I tried to create what I never had.
But things were not good, in fact they turned bad.
I did not succeed with what I was trying.
And my children reject all of my loving.
You see, after having nine children.
I'm still a young girl who craves lots of attention.
So all that they see, is a silly old woman.
Who wants to be cuddled and kissed and adored.
What they see is a lie, because I am here.
A woman that's learned and kind and still young.
Ella