Lovely Loathsome

The hatred flowing in the veins make it impossible

To accept or even understand what's going on in your mind

Misreading along the lines, assumptions, alternate reality?

Indescribable thoughts drive us mad

Is it real? Do I deserve it? Worthy?

Numb gnawing pain is a scarce shadow lingering in the shadows in the everyday life

Unable to forget their purpose

What they make you do

Taking control of you 

Everyone makes it harder, demanding you to meet the expectations that are required to reach

Your naive caring attitude bring you down to please them

Desperately to disguise and hide what is slowly eating you alive inside

It reaches 10, then 50, 60, 80 and so on percent until 100

Draining you to serve it's never stopping cycle

Only to start the whole process again

Yet after a while

When you are so used to it...

Isn't it just a lovely loathsome?