Alone

I don't wanna be alone anymore...

It's like this feeling is locked inside of me...

like despair is taking over...

and depression will never cease...

locked inside a cage is my heart...

trying so hard to be set free...

is it too much to ask...

God, are you even listening?



and then I hear a whisper

Is there a glimmer of hope still there?

Sorry, Im not a very good listener

can you show me that you still care?

Is there nothing that I can do...

to get you to hurry up and put me there?



I hate feeling so alone...

for me it's too much to bear...

so God I give this unto you...

because I can't tell if you still care.



Four straight years I prayed...

that you would put someone there...

finally the day came...

when I thought someone finally cared...

like everything else in life that ended...

so now my soul is again stripped bare...



It's painful this feeling in me...

of not knowing where to go...

all of that praying you see...

simply led me back to "GO"...

I hate starting over more than anything...

nothing else pains me so...



Where the hell is my happiness...

in this, my time of grief...

I feel like my life's a mess...

Where are you in my time of need?

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Ugh...the weight of such things is heavy to bear, and Im carrying about as much of it as I can stand...

View exthias1983's Full Portfolio
snshnexes's picture

Who said life was easy! It

Who said life was easy! It may just be a test of your own strengths and faith. Try not to enter in the"...". I believe it drags the poem's structure. Let it be more inviting. :)


Sonya

exthias1983's picture

I am working through it now.

I am working through it now. It seems patience is the key, and God is teaching me patience every single day, lol...the hard way.