Falling Apart

I lay here alone thinking to myself

"How did my life get to this?"

Feelings of worthlessness are like hell

burning deep in my head again!

 

Is there nothing to take it away?

There's nothing more I can say!

 

I'm falling apart within!

Falling so deep inside my head.

I just can't seem to win...

this battle verses my sin,

and I can't seem to get over it

while I am who I am.

 

I stand here by myself

thinking of how I failed again.

Why do I put myself through this hell?

How can I fight this battle, and win?!

 

There's one thing I can say...

Lord please come take it all away!!!

 

I'm falling apart again!

Falling so deep inside my head.

I just can't seem to win...

but Christ died for my sin.

I still can't seem to get over it

while I am who I am.

I'm falling apart again!

 

I am who I am.

There's nothing gonna stop that,

but I still can't fathom how far I've gone down.

These thoughts of mine not knowing where I'm at,

but sadness fills me like I'm going to drown.

Then, I see the light, the man who heals the blind.

He reaches out for me, blood on His hands, thorns on His crown.

 

and here I am...

just another nobody.

He meets me right where I am...

Carries me in hands that are holy.

 

Why did you do this for me?

I'm not worth your time.

He looks down from the cross, and I see

That He gave His life for mine.

 

Because I'm falling apart within!

Falling so deep inside my head.

He gave up so I'd win...

this battle verses my sin,

and I can't seem to get over it

while I am who I am.

Held in His hands again...

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Every day I battle feelings of worthlessness. This is what came from them today. It's my prayer that someone would read this, and know they're not alone. Know that someone is out there fighting for you even if I'm fighting myself too.

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