I Don't Know

Here I am, in my head again

Feeling alone. That's the day it's been.

I just want to be happy. Is that too much?

Is it too much for me to be shown such love?

Down the spiral goes all night long

Down the rabbit hole until I'm gone.

Drinking doesn't help, as much as I want to.

The only thing that helps is talking to you.

I wish that you were here with me right now,

or that I could be there with you somehow.

I wish I could see you with my own eyes

I can't see you though, and it's tearing me up inside.

The mistakes I made in this life are coming back to haunt me.

If I could I'd go back 15 years just to make myself see.

You know that though. I've said it a million times.

I hope we can be together in this life.

One thing recent events have taught me

Is to stop and look around, and take the time to see.

I'm trying so hard to fight this off.

Today though, the battle might be lost.

I hope things won't be like this forever.

I don't want to be depressed my whole life until i go to heaven

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Pretty down today

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