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From The Start
Repeated over and over again I listen,
To our song as my eyes grow wet and begin to glisten.
I've never been able to understand,
How it was possible for us to go so hand and hand,
And now be as loose as sand.
It seems to be, we're falling apart.
I could see it from the start.
Things were different, it wasn't from the heart.
I wondered if he just asked me back,
Just to keep me on track.
So I wouldn't shatter apart.
But I could see it from the start.
He didn't love me the same.
What is this? Some sort of game.
I felt like a glass picture frame.
On a wall in house where life is anything but tame.
I didn’t want to guilt him into love.
And I really didn’t want to give him a shove.
When he tried to express his fake love.
I didn’t want him to care,
Just because he was afraid I would dare.
Dare to do, something that would hurt me too.
I hated to push him a way.
I really did wish for him to stay.
But it wouldn’t be fair to hold him here.
Only loving me in fear,
He didn’t want to make me cry another tear.
I told him to go away.
I was going to set him free that day.
That it would be better if he weren’t to stay,
If we just stopped composing this mad play.
I watched him walk away
Into the darkening day
His back to me it finally fell astray.
And my happiness faded away.
I wasn’t gonna make him pay,
Looking up at the stars on the ground I lay.
I slowly got up from the ground.
There was barely a single sound.
I looked all around,
Then realized what I had found.
The creeping silence from the dark,
It would forever leave a mark.
All those days in the park.
He was my life's spark.
But know it has dwiddled into the dark.
It was best for him.
But my emotions were boiling over the rim.
It was like my memeory being wiped from the sim.
I couldn't live without him.
-Exkai Jade Satiro-
