Where do I begin?
From here, retrospect is the clearer picture.
I can tell you what I want, from who I am, but...
How did 'I' come to be?
Am I less than I was at the beginning?
Am I growing into myself?
Do we constantly change until the end?
I contort and bend, squinting at the straight and narrow thats paved...
I stray.
Viewing what I percieve to be real through the lens of ideals accumulated.
Is it right?
Is it ME?
If the choices are divided I want the truth.
If goodness is an illusion ive concocted then there is no evil...
What is neutral?
If the choices are divided I want the truth.
If it feels like less of me then that is what I remove.
Pressure...but only work will get this weight lifted.
Push...defy.
Will I become stronger?
I dont know but before a crash against my chest cripples me...
Taking my breath, I must even the odds.
If that is possible then God must exist.
Second chances are infinite, apparently, I know this...
Simulataneously knowing I dont know shit.
Just venting.