Do you fear time?
the boredom, the nothingness,
wanting to fast forward to the drama?
to get this life over with,
always somewhere else,
in fear,
not here though are you?
in the clouds of devistation,
of past and future ejaculation,
time shows you the torture
of what it means to exist,
as it requires giving yourself
to things you can't control,
how fast does it seem?
how slow should you go?
how do you proceed, when
you can't catch even a breathe
in sleep, the automatic mechanics
heal the body but not the mind, which
never really sleeps,
death would be preferable to life,
if we died before we lived
and knew what it was like
to be dead, to lose the self,
before its conception,
to start at the end and end
at the beginning,
to be able see things upside down,
watch yourself living in reverse
to where life is death,
to become what are you already are,
unborn again.