I continue to destroy what I love,
because I do not really love it,
the hate is the reality, but masks
itself in affection, and I try to express it,
but the hate is what my eyes condemn
to the person who looks into them,
because I know they will not know what
pain endures inside me and feeds the
rage, which becomes my defense against
the contradictions, and trying to rationalize
why things arent going my way, and so it
becomes necessary to make others regret
trying to understand the chaos that is me
so that I can injure their spirit so they can
feel exactly what I feel.