As I stare into the hollow void
my introspection
I see the choices I've made and
my misdirection
I cannot change my past
or deny it is there
I can ignore it though
and pretend I don't care
I took the wrong turns and
now there's no turning back
My hope is gone forever like a dream lost
and I woke up to black
My eyes are open, my world is closed
Living life feels like a tax imposed
Each day I wake up and realize
everything is the same as the day before
It causes me to wonder
Should I pay this tax any more?
I feel
like I could melt into the ground
I wish
that some day my hope could be found
My life is a problem
with only one solution that can be brought on by me
I will run from my problems and from this life I will flee
I will take a trek across the dividing line between the living and the dead
I sob shamefacedly at Death, but by those who knew me not a tear will be shed