TIME TO FOLLOW THE CALL OF MY HEART

The mystic must now move on,
Follow the call of his heart,
Everything here seems too much,
Discordant with the divine norm.

Adam and Eve lost divinity,
And the raiment of piety,
And now despite God's advice
Many still live aimlessly.

Nothing in the universe,
Has changed as much as Man has,
Blind ambition, greed and lust,
Have become fashion and elan.

I, for one, cannot be so,
I was never and can never be,
Tread blindly on my foe's footsteps --
The devil that wants to destroy me.

I must pay heed to the call of my heart,
Must be staunch and constant in my quest,
By walking firmly on the straight path,
And with God's help try my very best:
To purify myself inside and out,
And levitate above my mortal crust.
My fate that was chalked out for me,
My purpose of life -- my God's decree.

So, I must move on and advance,
And merge the 'droplet' with the 'sea'.
My friends, especially the best ones:
I thank you for all you have done for me.

O, I love you all just like before!
But, I can't be what I wasn't meant to be,
The material world never meant much,
To me, right from my days -- carefree.

I accept I strayed for a little while,
During my search for truth and good,
I blame no one for what happened,
In between my youth and manhood,

Yet, I have now realized it was ordained,
So that my soul could break itself free,
From temporal cravings and desires,
And make itself soar loftily.

Onward is my mystical journey,
Which has been made clearer now,
I have to adhere to the divine call,
And move forward unflinchingly.

The flight, which will lead me to Him,
Who created me from a single cell,
That's why I cannot afford to waste,
More time in this man-made hell.

I must move on, O my dear friends!
And cleanse myself spiritually,
And through self-negation,
Become one with Him completely.

I must crush my ego and my pride,
And give up all that binds me here,
I. the "Unbound", have now retraced,
The secrets of my salvation.

The beast in me must be slain,
So that my spirit sets itself free,
From all temporal, worldly bonds,
To attain my own eternity.
(Written and posted by Muhammad Naveed Ahmed/Emmenay, on Monday, April 18, 2011).

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Like all my best friends know, I was on the path of the mystics and saints, from the moment I started being blessed with the insight and wisdom to realize the difference between truth and falsehood, good and evil, the perishing and the everlasting -- which started with my teenage years in 1973-74. And I "was led astray" in 1985 by somebody very close to me. Now, I find myself hearing my heart cry out almost each night and day that I must return to the path and attain the goal chosen for me by my Creator, Allah (God Almighty).
This poem is the result of deep soul-searching, contemplation and meditation, on what I always felt was my real purpose of life in this world -- to evolve myself bodily, mentally and spiritually and become a mystic by remaining consciously constant on the straight path -- the one way which ultimately takes me back to where I came from -- God (Allah) and be in the company of the "righteous ones".
I am not boasting or claiming any kind of divinity here. I am merely explaining the path I felt I must revert to and keep moving onwards -- in order to attain my real goal which is to re-enter the spiritual dimension of self-awakening, self-realization and self-annihilation...in order to be accepted by the Lord of all worlds. May Allah/God guide and help me all the way, Aameen/Amen.

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