Stuck between a rock and a hard place
Trying to hide the sad expression on my face
Wondering how I've been able to take it this long
Wondering where the hell I went wrong
All I did was what any good guy would do
Showed you that I meant it when I said I love you
But now it seems that things between us have clouded
As I write this with my mind full of thoughts, so crowded
Feelings of rejection, hurt and neglect begin to surface when all I was guilty of was falling for you
Yes, I fell for you
Before this, we were fine, things were looking so up
So up that we were on cloud nine
Since then, we've dropped into what seems choppier than I could ever remember
I remember how you said you didn't want to live without me
Y ahora tengo miedo por que no sé como voy a vivir sin ti
Cada vez yo trato de no pensar
As I sit in the first car of the train that we took to Queens, that night when we first started on the 30
Maldito el tiempo que se acaba cuando estoy contigo
Maldito, maldito, el tiempo que tu no estas
Ojala y que estuvieras a mi lado para secar mis lagrimas
(if only you were here at my side to dry these tears)
Ojala y que estuvieras para abrazarme fuerte como siempre, para hacerme olvidar de este miedo
(if only you were here to hold me tight, like you always do, to erase my fears)
Y ojala que estuvieras para sanar mis cicatrices
(and if only you were here to heal these wounds)
As for right now though, we work this out, y ojala (hopefully) que everything works out fine
Por que at the start of the New Year, como no falta mucho para llegar, ojala que I am still yours, and you are still mine