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Too old, for someone so young.
I cant belive im only 17,
when i feel so much older then what you'll belive.
You wont agree, or understand, you dont know the circumstance.
You dont know how, or why, iv become this way,
you dont know how i was forced to change.
I was forced to push aside my youth, and my life.
i was put on this earth, to provide, and not to just stand by.
I had no choice, or chance to deside, there was another,
force controling me from the inside.
My heart was pulling me, and along the way, it was the one,
who choose my fate.
I couldnt leave or walk away,
My body was too young, yet my heart was so strong.
I didnt give up, i had to move along.
If not for myself, then for someone else.
It was my brother, i had to protect,
love, and care for.
He needed a parent,
a loving compainon, or at least
a guiding hand.
The mother and father, that where from which we came,
didnt care, they were oblivous, to us as if we were air.
They knew they had to breath, to live, yet, they forgot it was there.
They feed, and gave us, nessitys, but that isnt all a child needs.
It didnt matter, what happen to me,
as long as he got what he needed.
If i had to give, so that he would have,
then thats what happened.
My youth was spent, my childhood years where wasted,
my life was pushed aside, and i waited.
I waited, and i waited, for my turn to come,
where i would get to be, the person,
that im destined to be.
The person that i put on hold, and pushed aside,
forced to forget, and hide.
Im still in waiting, for the time,
to let her free, and let her see,
for the 1st time in her life,
the outside. To let her out,
and let her be, a little like a kid,
only to let her see, how magical it was,
to live, and belive, like everything is wonderfull,
even when they cant see,
that life, isnt what it seems.
I cant belive im only 17,
cause to me, it feels, like im
in my 30's, or my 50's, or somewhere in between.
Forced to be older, isnt what i wanted to be,
but at least, its helped me see,
and help others, who needed me.
